loose it to not lose it

Very often, you find yourself, filled with various thoughts on disparate subjects, unrelated to each other, but all related to you. You are suddenly, the center of them.

Much like how they’ve shown in new movie Inception, ie when you in the middle of your dream, all the attention of the random folks are placed on you. You feel like everybody is looking at you.

Pretty scary, isn’t it?!

Well, sometimes, you consciously pick one of the thought thread and follow it, typically this is when physiologically you are trying to concentrate, and it just so happens that the harder you try to follow, the harder it becomes to catch it, and ultimately you end up losing the thought.

Not a very uncommon phenomenon. Happens when you try to remember a dream, happens when you try to recall the idea that struck and got lost,  happens when you can recall everything but the name of person you are shaking your hands with, happens when you remember the feeling of thought but not the thought itself. Happens quite to a bit, so to speak.

Now why does this happen. Brain biology suggests, brain is made up of neurons, exchanging information over neurotransmitters in form on electrical impulses. Neurons are connected in the form of graph. Thoughts are stored in memory, in the form of these neuro-circuits. Brain as efficient as it is, keeps optimizing the circuits, ie. keeps only the ones it thinks, we’ll need. The decision is made by no. of incoming connections it has, you know, much like the Google’s pagerank. The lifetime of the memory of this thought can be determined by this no. of connected memories you have.

But still, that does not answer why you remember everything about the person, but just forgot the name, or lose the exact information you were most after, and know everything else, in a particular spur of a moment.  The question, if asked differently, could, did you lose the thought forever, or just couldn’t when it was most needed, consciously. My argument here would be that you didn’t really lose it, your recall function in the brain just couldn’t perform well against time you gave it, in other words, in network programming semantics it timed out – doesnt’ mean the data was not found, it was just not found within the time frame you wanted it.

Now, if you understand and consciously agree to this, then you can potentially train your brain to handle this situation in a few different ways –

Possibly –

1. Ofcourse best case would be, to optimize the recall function, so it doesn’t take that much of a time, to end up in a time out. Now that would require you to better organize data which helps recall. – so  enrich the data you’ll later want to remember with a lot of additional details, like sensory data or data collected by sensory perceptors (eyes, ears, skin), like

  • visual, for example pictures  (which is literally most rich dataset individually for brain),
  • audio, sound typically not noise
  • smell, if there is any.

et al.

Additional dimension of data makes the path to reach your thought or memory node shorter and stronger due the weight on the nodes.

2. Set a higher timeout. (Remember it can’t be a blocking operation, it would eventually time out). Means, condition of brain to wait, relax a bit try to slowly recall, gather data around it and gazing in.

3. Make the recall, asynchronous, so it does not time out. Means remove the urgency of the need of data, and check back often (poll), if you remember. More often than not, you’ll realize that you can.

You’ll notice an uncanny resemblance of brain functions and computer science, its no coincidence. If you think deep enough, you’ll see an uncanny resemblance between any of the practical concepts of the worlds to the brain functions, as everything as we see or experience, is a product of perceptions we gather over time, and store in brain. What goes in, comes out.

With computer science a more direct resemblance exists, as the Computer science is an instance of the partially known template of brain.While a computer is an instance of known Computer science. Once the partials would be complete, we’ll be able to manufacture brain.


Pursuit oh! Happiness

Happiness is often described as a state of mind; it makes us wonder in quite’er times why is that state not permanent, in other words, why are we not always happy? When it is so important to be called as ultimate aim of life, then why don’t we stick to what made us happy a moment back so we continue feeling good.
And why is it then, when we struggle to keep everything like the way it made us happy are able to keep it but, happiness gradually still fades away.
Happiness is a state of mind, but what can we do to keep the state once we have got it. So is the question really how to keep it, or how to get it again and again, so as to not have big gaps between the happy states of mind.

And this is my point here – what do people who seem to always be happy do?
They definitely don’t cling on things which make them happy. If we ‘think’ quitely we’ll realize that its not some physical things and setups which makes us happy, happiness is rather a reaction of our mind to the state of things when it first percieves them in one form or another within a moment. It is a moment a small moment which has enough power to make one happy, and the experience of that moment which us happy. And moment always just passes away, and leaves us ‘happy’ for a good amount of time, until other moments of feeling override the happy feeling in our minds.
Physically, the mind takes this experience through one or combination of our ‘indri’ or perception receptor ie it could be a sight of young kid smiling at you, could be a first sip of hot cappuccino at your fav cafe on a cold but bright morning, could be a first time you are holding your baby, could be scent of your lady love when you getting close for the first kiss, and multitude of moments like these. These moments could be as simple as a squirrel climbing up the tree, or as special as holding your first baby. These moments of happiness can come from anywhere.
It could be a sound of ring from an old friend, and news that he’s visiting, totally unexpected but highly longed for.
It could just well be a regular train commute to work, and the girl sitting next to you, of whom you are not even able to clearly see the face , and that feeling in the stomach, that may be she’s the one – a big may be, but its the settings which makes you feel good about it.
There are numerous things which can generate these feelings within one’s life conext.

So – should we wait for something big to happen or achieve so you can become happy – as even if it happens the happiness would still be momentary, and eventually fade away? Also should we be clinging on to a state of things, which made us happy once?

Our mind keeps looking for fresh moments all the time.
The key would be to find happiness in small things, to try and behold these moments in the heart and move on, to find more.